Tonight made me think..

I was going to start this blog in 2012, but when I went to dinner tonight with a good friend, I realized that I need to start it immediately. Tonight my church CUMC had our annual Christmas Eve service. I was really excited tonight because I haven't been to big church in awhile aaaaaand I had a really super cute outfit. Once I got there and seeing all familiar faces made me miss it. Lately after since a break-up of a very long relationship I haven't been the best Christain ever. But being there tonight made me miss it so much. When the church service got over, my friend and I went out to dinner. We sat down and pretty much caught up on how our lifes are going for us. Then we started talking about the people we are crushing on, found out, he is crushing on my best friend and I am crushing on his best friend, go figure! But forget that, to the point of this blog, we started talking about my relationship with the Lord. It's not the best and I will admit that. I have been out lately going to parties and I have been drinking. That's not me at all. I hate it, I actually don't like alcohol that much. My mom is probably going to read this and be upset but this is me being real and saying what needs to be said, kinda like a short testimony. But talking to him because I know that he was going through the same thing recently and I ask him, "How did you become solid again?" He told me that literally one night he just took his journal out and read everything and started crying. And truthfully, lately I have been doing that and looking at what I use to be made me cry and made me miss the old me. Sitting there talking about my future and his and what we wanna do church wise makes me wanna be solid. So my journey of becoming Courtney Briggs, a christain strong girl is happening now..